Something to do..

Its after midnight... Daddy is sleeping and mom is busy. D is in the bedroom but since she really doesn't like me i'm not sure if she's awake or not. Whitney is sleeping and the little kids are all asleep. I'm just sitting here trying to figure out what to do... So I started a place for me.

Katie just went to bed. So now its just me.

Anyways, about me. I'm 15... but I live and exist inside a 27 year old body. There's one other here too, besides me and Sarah... and she's 6. Life is definitely interesting. We don't go to therapy and have only ever admitted to one mental health professional what actually goes on in our head. Daddy knows though... Daddy is Sarah's husband... and mom knows.... my mom is actually Sarah's friend. They both not only know, but can relate. Sarah's other friend, C, is like a big sister to me and Betsy.

Aside from the people listed above... I don't care much for people. I am constantly getting into some kind of trouble... mostly because I have no impulse control and very little "thinking it through" skills. I say what I want to and usually when I want to... and deal with the consequences later.

In all honesty, I dont think I'm very well liked, but I'm not too sure I care much about it. D told me tonight that her and i don't mesh well personality wise and that she'd rather deal with Sarah. I think thats because Sarah's soft and will back down to avoid conflict... but that conversation doesn't mean she'll have Sarah any more often than she does now. Sarah and I are splitting time almost 50 5o. I've decided that I like being around.

I can't think of much more to say right now... just bored. I wish Fen pr Jayme were here so I would have someone to talk to. They're my best friends. Jayme may only be 11, but he's pretty cool. Ideally though I wish Daddy and i were playing video games or something.

~K~